Skinny love

So things are starting to look up for me know. I feel like my dark days aren't so dark anymore. I feel like things are different to how they were before. I feel like I've changed. I feel like i'm starting a new life... a life I acutally started 6 months ago, but how i'm fully throwing myself in and really starting to appreciate things.

I used to look at what I would of had and didn't have. Now i'm only really looking at what I do have and i've not been this happy in a while :)

It's honestly the best thing. Like Birdy, her voice is amazing. I can not express how much I love this singer... It's songs like this which give me faith in humanity and life.

Quick fix.

That moment when you realise everything you thought would fix life and make you instantly happy, doesn't acutally make you happy. There's no quick fix to the pain you feel in side. No matter how much love you get given, no matter how much you accomplish in life, nothing will take away the wonder about why were acutally here. Nothing will stop your inner thoughts and worst demons other than YOU.

That's our problem, we think things will fix us and when they don't we give up.

Inner strength is all you need.

The rest is just a bonus

I wished and so she gave.

I have wished for strength - So the universe gave me complication. 

I then wished for simplicity - So the universe made me poor.

I wished for true love - So the universe gave me music.

I wished for perfect romance - So the universe gave me films.

I wished for happiness - So the universe sat back and watched. Listened. And waited for me to realise that it's the small things that make you happy in life. The things that no-one can just give you. It's the things you earn. 

I wished I knew what to do - So the universe inspired me. 

Just, Something to think about. 

Yesterday I realised that things don't just change. Things will never get better unless you do something about it.

Today I put that into action.

In to the wild

Yesterday I was having a pretty low day, I can admit that quite openly acutally. Everything that was going right just seemed to be going wrong. It was one of those moments where it wasn't like everything HAD gone wrong, I was just seeing everything wrong. Everything annoyed me. Everything was there. Everything was.... wrong.  I confided in a friend of mine who I had met recently but he has soon become a very close friend of mine, about how I didn't know what was worth the fight anymore and what wasn't. I didn't know what I wanted. If I should leave education or if I should carry on down this path.
If I should go for it, close my eyes and never look back or if I should realise that i'm only going to get hurt and move on.

And he told me to watch "Into the wild"

It's a real life story based on a young man who decided to leave his life of luxury and divulge into the life of the wild. To travel, to live and to eat as our ancestors did. To leave "our world", which has bound us by social construct and a judging society and live the simple life. To find truth. To find one's self. To find freedom.

I shant spoil the film so if you haven't seen you should click on your iTunes and get it now! Or get down to your local book store and see if they have a copy of the book in there. It will change your view on life. Have you ever done something because everyone else has done it? Because, even without your own questioning of it, it's just the "right" thing to do. Like go to university, go out clubbing, laugh at a joke that isn't funny because everyone else is doing it. This film reminded me of a quote I heard that went something like "Once in a while it hits people that they do not have to experience the world they have been taught to".

We don't need money
We don't need a lot of belongings
We don't need a big career
We don't need a perfect family
We don't need millions of friends
We don't need to follow the "norm"
We don't need to follow advice
We don't need to date as many people as possible to find the one
We don't need to be in love
We don't need sex

We don't need anything but good health, good will and a few special people to share it with. So next time you do something I dare you to think about the reasons your doing it and if it will fulfil your life in the way you want it too or if your doing it because society has told you this is how people like us live.

There are no people like us

There's only one person like you.


Just something to think about

Memoires

He was the congregation's vagrant,
With an unrequited love.
When your passion's exaltation,
Then finding refuge is not enough.
She was the youngest of the family
And the last to be let go.
When they decided they would try to make it on their own.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Where'd you go?

(Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh)

When July became December,
Their affection fought the cold.
But they couldn't quite remember,
What inspired them to go.
And it was beautifully depressing,
Like a street car named Desire.
They were fighting for their love that had started growing tired.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away!

When money lost momentum,
And the bills were piling high
Then the smile had finally faded,
From the apple of their eye.
They were young and independent,
And they thought they had it planned.
Should have known right from the start
You can't predict the end.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away!