Every second counts

Someone, a totally random friend, who I hadn't spoke to for seven years, randomly ended up going to the same college/uni as me. We randomly decided to meet a couple of days ago, on a spur of a moment thing and had great fun. Today for a totally random reason, out of context to anything important, just out of the blue in a totally bog standard normal conversation via text message we were having after he randomly decided to text me asking how my evening was, he said

"every second counts" 

Randomly at the same time, I was watching a program I randomly started to watch, at that exact time, after given the box set by my flatmate 2 weeks ago, randomly on the exact episode where a young girl in this certain series would have died had they waited 20 seconds longer to operate.


And people acutally wonder if things happen for a reason....

Who we are

Every time I write on here it's because i've discovered something about myself or the world around me. Well today I guess that's the same, exsept what i've realised is that none of it matters. I'm smart and funny, but i'm also dumb and stupid. I'm loud and energetic, i'm also quiet and reserved. I'm anything I can be at one possible moment. Moments make me, what I do defines me. I make mistakes, no matter how hard I try I can never please everyone and sometimes what I say and do will upset people. It will also make people smile. One moment isn't who you are because people don't know the back story. People judge, but the more you worry about the more it'll come true.

Truth is, I label myself and punish myself more than anyone else does. Until you love who you are things won't get better.

We worry things will happen... and then they do. And we only have ourselves to blame which makes it soo much worse.

The reason I write about it all? Because I'm not alone.