Time.

So right now i'm looking for answers. About anything and everything. About life and about love. Answers i'm not sure I will ever find. I think i'm in love but I honestly never wanted to be so in love at such a young age, especially not one that is so mature and so intense. But then I think what it would be like in an immature relationship and I think I would hate it or one that wasn't intense, I want to be able to feel. So why am I confused? I guess i'm a girl who can admit I always look at what I don't have instead of what I do have. I'm never going to enjoy life if I keep on living life like that. Ever. I know it too. It makes me want whatever I don't have even though deep down I don't think I would enjoy it anyway. But I always think, what if it was better? I'm just waiting for the day when I realise what I thought I never wanted was what I wanted all along. For the day I can appreciate things for what they are and not concentrate on what's not there So I can be the good person my friends and family deserve. So I can be the person the love of my life deserves. Because he deserves so much more then I have given him so far. Yes he made a mistake that made me upset, but everyone makes mistakes. I know I have.

Everything takes time. The sad thing is that we don't have a lot of it.