" 2 Am and i'm still awake writing this song, if i get it all down on paper it's no longer in side of me, threatening the life it belongs too. And i feel like i'm naked in front of a crowd, these words are my diary screaming out loud and i know that you'll use them however you want too..."
Can it? Can one hour, sixty seconds, really make such an impact on you, that your life has changed forever?
It took 3 years to build the titanic, and only 2 hours 40 minutes for it to sink.
It took 102hours, 45minutes and 40 seconds for the Apollo to get to the moon, but only 1 minute for Neil Armstrong to step onto the surface.
It took 1,364 years for someone to make a hand gun, but it only takes seconds for a bullet to end a life.
Question: can sixty seconds change your life?
Answer: it can only take 1 moment to change your life. Whether it's a good or bad, self inflicted or unknown circumstances these moments are everywhere. Possibly even sixty seconds away from now. So yeah, it can change your life... Its how you deal with it that changes who you are.
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fighting.
Noah: Well, that's what we do! We fight! You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ass. Which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two-second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain in the ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday.
Okay, i've just decided my life is about to change.
I'm not as happy as I could be and I could do so much more with my time.
I don't mean to sound blunt but.... one day we're gonna die. What's the point in letting things slip you by. But then what's the point in holding on to things that are just going to waste your time.
I'm gonna get fitter and acutally be good at sport.
I'm gonna finish uni in 3 years with my first!
I'm not gonna have to use my degree because i'm going to travel with my guitar.
I'm going to TRAVEL.
I'm going to be daring.
I'm gonna pay more attention to life rather than being tired or complaining about being tried.
I'm going to follow my gut feelings.
I'm gonna stop being so paranoid.
I'm gonna start living.
I'm going to be more calm.
I'm NOT going to worry about the future and just concentrate on now.
I'm not going to read to much into things.
I'm going to make time for people.
I'm going to stop doing stupid things.
I'm going to concentrate on every aspect of my life EXCEPT love.
I'm gonna learn to play piano.
I'm gonna busk and play more gigs.
I'm gonna smile and enjoy my time and NOT worry if other people are having a better time than me or not.
I'm going to live my life.
I'm going to be the person I want to be.
I'm going to live how i want to live.
And if my heart gets broken, and if i loose everything i have, at least i wont think 'What if' at least I can say I lived. And no matter what happens I can and I will find true happiness in my life.
Step one. To believe I can do everything I just spoke about. To believe in myself for a change.
Because to be fair i;m a bit of a hypercrit. Telling everyone who reads this blog to change and live you life when I'm not even putting 100% into mine because i'm lazy and to put it bluntly i'm scared. Of what could happen. Of the future. Of life.
It's funny. I've done a lot of crazy stuff in my life and I feel like i've really been alive. And I always think to myself that the time will come for me to settle down when i'm done living my life.... and right now it feels like i'm not even close.
Okay, so i've done a lot of living for a girl of 18... but some people have done so much more. So much more. There is still so much I want to do. We always waiting in out life. Waiting to live. Waiting for the holiday. Waiting to go home. Waiting to leave. Waiting for EVERYTHING in our life. Why can't we just enjoy right now? Why do we have to stay so far back in the past that we cant think about the future? Or so caught up in our future that we forget to live for now. Why can't people just BE. And be happy.
As soon as someone figure's out why, that's when you learn how to live. And when they then use the answer, that's when they finally live. You can do as much things in world as the next person but the person who truly lives isn't running from there past or away from the future. You can do nothing and still live because your truly happy.
So stop worrying about what everyone is doing because that is never going to help. It will only make it worse. And start concentrating on what your doing. And what makes you happy. And how YOU want to live YOUR life.
And remember to enjoy your time. Don't do any of this "they look like there having so much more fun than me. There living. I have a rubbish life" because if you honest with yourself you do do that don't you? Constantly judge yourself with other people looking for evidence that your living. Truth is you can smile in a picture but it doesn't mean your having a good time.
Just try and be happy. At the end of the day, that's what matter most.
I was just dancing away on the dance floor and then suddenly decided to look over at him. I saw his gorgeous smile and intent eyes flicker around the room and I just realised, after all this time, we have the right love at the wrong time. Its like... I knew it all along. knew it and I said it and it was just sat at the back of my mind., but I never believed it because I loved him. I do love him. I'm very sure I will always love him. And the feeling I have right now makes me feel like we are soul mates, and one day he will be mine forever. But that time isn't now. It's like I looked through someone else's eyes and realised if we carried on like we were then we're going to break each other. This isn't right. This isn't fair on either of us and I can't pretend i'm happy anymore.
So...
Dear You,
This you is for everyone who is in love at the wrong time, broken from love and waiting for love. It's hard. It sucks. Some days you just want to sit and cry and it feels like you'll never find someone. Sometimes it feels like the what ever choice we make is going to be the wrong one. We all live in fear of ruining our lives but if your not happy things HAVE to change. Things wont just "get better". The pain might be unbearable but in the end it will be worth it for the moment when you realise exactly what you want and your truly happy.
And this you is for you, my dear sweet love, if you ever read this. I'm so sorry. I always said we were the victim of circumstance . Please know i've loved you with all my heart. I truly did. Saying goodbye will be the hardest thing I ever do. It is the hardest thing i've had to do. So just make sure you keep yourself safe, okay? I will always be here for you. Just know that. <3
.... And the suddenly it's like i've never been so lost in my life.
So I haven't written to you, my dear readers, in quite a while. For that I do apologize. Life has been a bit hectic recently between unexpected circumstances in the family, self esteem issues, heartache and of course none of this was helped by the fact I moved 90 miles away from my friends and family to a small town by the cost to start my new life.
When I moved her I was at one of the lowest points of my life I think. I cried every night for a week. Everything was knew, I wasn't enjoying it, I wanted my family and friends back. It just seemed that I was looking forwade to leaving and having this fresh start and when I got here all I wanted was what I had. The whole you never know what you've got until it's gone thing kicked in. I thought I made a mistake. And I haven't admitted this before but I was so close to packing my stuff and leaving. Coming home and restart my thinking. Who was I kidding? I have NEVER cooked a meal for myself! I couldn't do the washing.... what was all these bills people were sending me about paying for my accommodation? I didn't know anyone.... I couldn't talk to anyone... I wasn't ready to move out! I wasn't ready for any of it.
And here I am. Two months later. Leaving for Christmas in a week and I kind of don't want to leave. I love it here. I love the partying. I love my course. I love the people I have met and I love trying new things and doing new things. I love how I have so much opportunity here to be who ever I want to be and go places i've always wanted to go and it's all new exciting.
And until today I realised that i got too caught up in the wurl wind of it all and i gave myself no time to relax. And now i'm suffering for it. Things have changed in my life right now. The only thing i'm sure about at the moment is that i'm in love. But distance pulled that apart. Life pulled that apart. Situation pulled that apart. I'm not who I want to be. I'm not me. Things happen in life so you just have to deal with it and move on. But you've got to give yourself time to move on. People keep rushing life. I have been rushing life. And now, i'm ready to slow down and work on me. Work on what I really want and which path I want to go. What better time to start then right now?
Today was a pretty ordinary day. I was at work and it was a pretty standard day serving customers, doing paper work and sorting things out. However one thing really stood out. I was talking to this girl who was over the moon because we would be able to give her a refund on a item she brought - which is sometimes a standard reaction. However this one girl really stood out because just as she was about to leave she looked at me, sighed, and said "Well at least this is one mistake I can undo" and then she left.
There is this Lady. This strong wonderful lady. When she was 16 years old she gave birth to a baby boy. No-one knew she was pregnant until she gave birth, her parents always said they would be kicked out if they had children so young, but she still chose to keep the child growing inside her.
Her parents forgave her and loved that child so much. They helped her any way they could. But no-one thought it would work with her partner with the age difference and the stress of having a child so young. They hadn't know each other long, but it was love. They stayed together and tried to make it work. She started work and looked after the child. They brought a small place to live. He had a full time job. Time's were hard but they never faltered. Times got harder. Eventually things seemed to be looking up. She conceived again and this time had a little girl. They needed a bigger house and money was low. He then decided to sell the one thing he loved other than his family - his motorbike. She promised him when they had better jobs she would get him a new one. They moved. They worked hard in the mornings to get the children ready. Then worked hard in the days at jobs for small amounts of money. Then worked extra part time jobs in the evening for extra cash. He worked away from home even though he hated being away from his family. And then at night looked after the children. They gave everything they could to their children. They gave them everything they could never have. He loved her so much. She loved him so much.
This story, like many others, is to anyone who judges teen pregnancies. To anyone who doubts the power of love. To anyone who thinks that the bad things that happens are all "mistakes". To anyone who thinks that their life is over when something goes wrong.
This story is for the people who never give up.
They've just celebrated their 20th wedding anniversary. She's having a career change and starting up her own business. He is now working closer to home and fewer hours. The boy is now in his twenties working full time with a great social life.
The girl is sitting right here, writing this the story about her magnificent parents before she heads off to university.
Their both still madly in love. And she kept her promise after all these years.
Things are what you make of it. If it's really worth it then nothing will get in the way.
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Dear my loyal readers. My summer is slowly drawing to a close, I have around 5 weeks left at home until everything changes and I leave. But this post isn't about my future, it's about what i've learnt from my past.
I told you in my last post about my plans for the summer, about my fight to make sure I make the most of those 3 months. I wanted to sort out bits and pieces of my life and belongings to make sure i'm ready for my next chapter. Lesson number 1 - Nothing goes according to plan. My room is still a tip, nothing is sorted out and i'm not a step closer to sorting my life out. I like to think of this as a work in progress... Truth be told I just haven't found the time. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing but there you have it.
I said yes to a lot of things this summer, which has lead me to many opportunities and got me to see and do so many things. It really does make you live just that little bit extra. I've partied 7 days straight. I have seen the sun rise 4 times with out any sleep. I have watched the most amazing sunset. I have camped in the pouring rain. I have met the most amazing people and I have also met some complete dicks. I've faced one of my biggest fears and i've helped someone fight theres. I've spent time with family and friends. I've had the most amazing days that i'm so happy i could sing. I've had the worst days where I just want to be alone and cry. I've done a lot this summer. I've learnt a lot about myself. Thats one of the good things about being human, you never stop learning things. About yourself. About the world around you.
The biggest thing that I have learnt this summer is that you can travel the world and visit a million difference places. You can submerge yourself in work and have no free time. You can cancel all your plans and have all the free time in the world. You can shut your self away. You can completely sort out your life or you can leave it mess. You can try and put yourself thousands of miles away from everyone or stay right next to them. But you can never run away from your feelings. You can't distant yourself from the truth.
Travelling the world is only for those who want to run towards new life, not run away from old ones.
The truth is, this summer I have learnt that you have to make peace with things in your own way before you can truly move on. You can't search for the answer miles away because truth is ALWAYS closer than you think. You can't pretend everything is okay when it's not because at one point in your life you'll look back and regret being unhappy, you'll regret not speaking up and always wondering 'what if'. Life is too short to have regrets.
If your not happy, sort out the problem. Then do things that make you happy. Simple.
I hope you all have had a good summer so far. Look after yourselves <3
So i'm done. I finished my exams in June and since then i've been sleeping a lot, partying and pretty much enjoying not having to stress about exams! It's just worrying about my results that scares me now! but nothing I can do about it now I guess!
So this summer I have decided that i'm going to really try and not hold back. I'm going to play the "Yes within reason game". Allow me to explain. For a period of time when someone asks you out you HAVE to say yes. None of the "i'm too tried to go" Or "I have to get up early" excuses, you just have to say yes. The 'within reason' bit comes in when you do acutally have other plans or if someone asks you to do something that you morally do not want to do. But the yes game is a chance to be crazy and have ago at anything! Life is so much better when you start saying yes and start living. You have plenty of time to rest later in life.
I always looked at summers as a significant amount of time where I could start to find who I was. Then I learnt that you don't find yourself. You create yourself. So that is what I will be doing this summer. Creating my self in time for the next chapter of my life. Thats a scary thought... letting everything go and starting somewhere new. It's not easy, but someone once told me it's not about where you end up, but how you get there.
So I will be documenting my journey this summer in a hope that my dear readers will be inspired to go out and live there life. There is so much in this world. I have seen so much already, but I've barley scraped the surface. I'm not naive in the sense that I know that not everything is laughing and happy. Not everyday will be a good day. But in life you have to have the bad to appreciate the good. You have to have the bad to grow and become stronger. It helps us learn.
If your too afraid to lose sight of the shore you'll never have the courage to cross the sea.
A lot of things are on my mind today. Isn't a lot of things on people minds anyway? If you think about how much information our brain processes everyday, feelings, colours, temperature, objects, pain, love, weather, etc. We process so much everyday that things are ALWAYS on our mind. It just so happens that the things on mind I have chosen to think about -Insert debate about determinism and free will here-
"Youth is wasted on the young" - As much as I agree with this statement there is many things wrong with it.
First of all isn't being young all about being careless and not knowing anything? And youth is the period where we can recover the best from our mistakes. Every mistakes makes us that little bit wiser... while we get that little bit older. If we were wise and young then no-on would dare try anything new and everyone would know what they want to do and so no one would do anything new or even have the feeling we experience today. So the power of youth would be wasted on the old. Which brings me on to my next point...
Secondly, if you believe philosophical saying such as "Youth is wasted on the young" then it would be hypercritical of you not to bring into account other saying such as "Your as young as you feel" or "Old age is 15 years older than I am". When exactly does youth finish? Because if your comparing age to the world then 60 years isn't even a breath. In social context you are labelled as old, but in reality you are not.
Lastly, if you do choose to look at youth in a social context way and think it's any time before ages 30 (just a guess, i've made it clear this is not how i choose to look at things!) Then youth isn't wasted on the young. It's wasted on exams, pressures of growing up, trying to build a career and family, a judging society and on stress. Not only do exams take the youth out of the young, it also stops the idea of what school should be. School should be about the love of learning about life and not learning how to pass your next exam. I understand that you have to know where people are and it's important to know what standard you are at with education. But isn't there a better way to do it?
I don't know. I'll let you make up your own decision about it all. Just make sure that whatever you decide that you always smile... because at the end of the day isn't us being happy the only thing that matters?
This post is dedicated to anyone doing any sort of examinations in the next couple of weeks
- Goodluck :)
It's true what they say about karma. I strongly believe in it. If you do something bad then something bad will happen to you. If you do good things then good things will happen to you.
The only problem with Karma is that it's defined totally upon right and wrong. Yet can you really justify actions as right or wrong? If you were trying to help someone and it goes wrong, does this count as a good or bad action? Good or bad Karma?
Not even something as simplistic as Karma can be straight forwade.
And today's song is Jessie J - Nobody's Perfect. Because even though this song is about someone apologising for making mistakes it made me realise that if there's a problem you gotta fix it. If your not happy you've got to make yourself happy. This song, to me, is saying "Yes I made mistake and now i'm suffering. But I'm only human... and nobody's perfect."
In the end we only regret chances we didn't take.The relationships we were scared to have and the decisions we waited to long to make there comes a time in your life when you realise who matters, who doesn't, who never did and who always will.
Thank you for writing music. I know a lot of people have said it's too sad and it's all the same. But I LOVE the fact that you write your music for you. The reason your music is so power is because it seems that you don't care what is currently in the charts, or it seems that you don't write music for the next big hit. You write because its a way to show people how you feel. It shows us the pain you felt and it MAKES people feel. Your music does something most artists can only dream of. It helps people.
You've managed to define all current stereotypes in so many ways. It's not about the look, it's not about a sex appeal dress code, it's not about partying or front pages on tabloids, it's not about the money and its not about the fame. It's about the music. Purely about the music.
A lot of people said i'm naive recently. I agree. Sure, I don't know everything in the world, but some things I do just choose to ignore. I'm pretty sure everyone chooses to ignore things so it's all easier... so aren't we all naive? Yeah. We are. Even Mahatma Gandhi can be a little naive I guess. Well, one can hope. But he's still a great great man.
"Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it."
Why am I telling you this? Because I am who I am. I change opinions, i've been angry or upset, I don't smile all the time, I ask questions, I'm silly and serious, I speak my mind, I make mistakes, I make crappy joke and embarrass myself, I have a crazy laugh, I think about serious things at inappropriate times, I sometimes struggle to communicate what i'm thinking, and, like most, I want to make my mark on this world. But I am who I am. And your music makes me feel like that's okay.
If you haven't heard what's going on tomorrow you've probably been living in a small dark cave in the middle of no where....
Well just in case.... it is the day that 'commoner Kate' becomes Princess Catherine and marries into the Royal Family.
Being British and living in a society constantly surrounded the Monarchy I have, of course, taken some interest into the Royal Family. I'm sure they are wonderful people and if I ever got the chance the meet them, I probably would. But I'm not a big Royalist. Sure, if someone was talking bad about them I would probably end up defending them with all my British pride but I have my views on the fairness of it all.
Luckily for you, my post today isn't about my views on the Royal Family. Nor is it about soon to be Princess Catherine and Prince William.
My post today is purely about William Mountbatten-Windsor and Kate Middleton. Tomorrow, 1/3 of the worlds population will not only be watching the Royal family gain a Princess, but will be watching a young boy and a young girl promising themselves to each other and vowing they will look after each other for the rest of there lives. Tomorrow will be the day the world stops to see love.
I was watching an interview when William and Kate were talking about how they met, there proposal and there break up. And suddenly in the middle of a serious interview Prince William make a joke and Kate giggled like a little girl. From that moment on I didn't see two high profiled figures talking about one of the most famous days that will go down in history. I saw two lovers talking about there wedding day. Its nice to know that even if you have everything in the world its nothing compared to love. It lets you know that love is forever and that no matter who you are, you can be happy.
I mean, sure, on my wedding day I will probably have less than 100 people watching as I walk down the isle in my low budget dress to an out of tune organ. Nothing compared to the wedding we'll all witness tomorrow. But no matter what, a wedding is about love, so it is always as special as the next, no matter how big or small. (I would also like to add at this point I have no desire to get married for a very very long time.... i'm 18 for crying out loud! :P)
To conclude I would like to congratulate Kate and William on there engagement and I wish them a life time of happiness together in the future.
I read another blog that talks about love.
Every day it posts pictures and stories about heartache, about longing, about fulfilment and passion.
About romance, betrayal, ruined pasts and happy ever afters.
Sometimes its really hard to read.
And others, it makes you believe again.
One post talked about how a girl had lost everything and most importantly she has lost her one love. She finished the post by saying that the thing that hurt the most was that all she wanted was a hug from the one boy she lost.
Then I read that pain is the price we pay for love....
When I was sat down today I saw a small child run to his dad. He than ran back to his toys. He than ran towards a door and than back to his dad. It became evident that the small child, who's name I will never know, ran at every opportune moment he could.
Truth is we're all running. Running away from a dead end job. Running from the people who taunt you. The truth. The settled down life. Your fears. Love.
Or is that the pessimistic way of looking at it? Maybe we're running towards new opportunities. Running towards people who love you. New experiences. Your dreams. Love.
Wherever we're heading we're getting there fast. If having love in this world means dealing with pain then surely its worth it. Everythings worth it. I think the hard part is trust. Not even just trusting other people. Having trust in yourself that no matter what happens everything will be okay.
"Everythings okay in the end... If its not okay then its not the end"
Yeah... i've heard that phrase before.
When you go to describe a situation, a moment, a memory and someone says "Just call it what it is" and it seems likes a bases of moving on from it, a reason to stop thinking about it.
You can make it seem like it's the best thing in the world and then in a blink of a second it can be filled with so many of your own insecurities it's lost in a tangled web. You can look for things that just aren't there or miss things that always were.
They say "beauty is seen in the eye of the beholder", so surely everything else in life can mean something different depending on who's green/bluey/golden eyes you see it from. Surely every time we try to define something we are calling it "what is it" because what else could it be? It's what we see it as.
Or maybe, it's the blindness we choose to see it as. No matter who's green/bluey/golden eyes we see it from.
This post probably isn't making much sense. I don't want it to.
I guess what i'm trying to say is that everyone is trying to see what things really are.
"She didn't say hey to me today, I must have done something wrong"
Or looking for things that aren't there.... and of course if you look hard enough you'll find a "reason" to give up.
"No-one invited me out today, everyone must hate me"
Or your just too scared to open up. So you miss out on things.
Rachel: "I never got a chance to say I love you"
OR
You could risk getting hurt, call it whatever the hell you want and stop looking for reasons to give up.
You can't explain everything by analysing it. Sometimes you've just got to believe you already know "what it is" and trust a little. You may be surprised.
Ross: "Did she get off the plane?!?!"
Rachel: "I got off the plane"
This morning I managed to make my 'lay in' last until 12! It was so nice to just relax for a little while. Sometimes all you need it just a little sleep to make you feel so much better :)
So before I get onto my topic of conversation for today I want to apologies for my lack of posts recently! I know its been a while, but the way I see it is that this blog is all about living your life and that's what I've been doing! And there is a lot to talk about! I've also had my head under books recently so i'm about to put my life on hold for school work, hopefully it'll be worth it.
So this morning I went for a walk. I quite often do this when i'm feeling stressed, or if i want to clear my head, or just to relax before i start my school work. Just as i was on my way home i passed three people in deep conversation. Two of them were obviously married and i recognised the garden they were standing at the bottom of to be theirs. The Third of them looked like a friend. As i passed i took out my headphones and good mornings were exchanged. Just as i was about to walk on one of the ladies said "We see you walk down here all the time! Its such a lovely day to do it" i smiled and replied " Its is such a lovely day! I walk when ever i'm about to do my school work"
This then erupted into conversation with them asking about my school work and congratulating me on passing my car test (I didn't acutally say anything about it they had seen me driving) and talking about me passing my bike test and my life in general. It turns out the couple have lived in that house for 18 years and have watched me grow up. Seen me climbing trees, get stuck, playing, saw me leave for my first day of school, see me going to my nans, see me fall out with friends and make up. They've seen me change my whole life and up until today i've never talked to them once. This may seem all quite odd to some people, but i live next to OAP counsel homes so these people just take notice of lives. Its odd to think that they've cared about me and my life for my whole life. Have been happy for me when i passed my car test, wondered if i going to uni soon, thought about how old i was now and i never knew.
I guess we just assume people don't see or people just don't care when in fact they do. If i hadn't of gone out today i may never have talked to them, but that wouldn't have stopped them caring.
People care even when you don't see it.
People watch you grow and change.
People can surprise you.
People care even when you don't see it. Remember that.
The title is a quote one of my best friends gave me in a book for my Birthday.
Happiness
I think human beings are so odd sometimes. And I am guilty of this too!
You live, breathe and sleep for the moments of true happiness, and when there finally here instead of enjoying it you worry about when its going to end.
The higher you climb the harder you fall
Karma
Too good to be true
Fate
- Just some of the excuses we have in our world to explain things that happen. I'm a strong believer in Karma and Fate, but not the extent you can blame it when something goes wrong. At what point in your life should you STOP working hard and say "Its ok, if its meant to be.... it will be" Because that's irresponsible. If its meant to be it WILL be, but for it to be you've got to put the work into it. You know?
I wish people lived in the moment more. Because then you could enjoy the moments of true happiness instead of always looking for a reason for it to end. But living in the moment doesn't stopping your life, stopping looking towards the future and stopping what your working towards.
If you look for something, your more likely to find it...
"Happiness isn't getting what you want, but wanting what you have....."
Today I found a song which says everything I've wanted to say for a long time...
This post is dedicated to Nickelback <3
- Thank-you for not being afraid to speak the truth. Truly inspirational.
"My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothin' stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side If today was your last day And tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love
So yesterday was a big day for me. Not big in the sense that my life officially changed forever from that day on. Or in the sense that something really really fantastic happened, something that never happens, because what happened happens every day.
One month ago yesterday was my 18th birthday. So yesterday marks my first month of being 18. In my first month of being 18 I got my full bike license, I passed yesterday. This is huge for me because I hadn't been on my bike for a week and I fell off, and even though I got back on as soon as I could, this point seemed like a millions miles away. Passing my test wasn't even the biggest things that happened yesterday! It was the feeling you get after you've work really hard towards something and it finally pays off. The feeling that nothing is impossible and everything you go through to get there is so worth it just for that moment and the prospects of what lies ahead.
I haven't felt like that in a long time.
Getting that feeling may have just changed the fight i'm having with my efforts towards my future. I'm going to be on my way somewhere September 26th (the day uni's start). Lets just hope its not back home.
In life, if you let it, there are are always reason to give up. Whatever it is, if your sure you want it enough then don't let them stop you. Don't give up.
There is a fine balance between knowing when to accept that its not yours or giving up too soon. What's the worst? Giving up too soon and loosing what could have been or it being hard to accept but you gave it your all, no regrets?
If its not meant to be then don't fret, there might be something better. Just make sure you know that life always carries on.
"Everythings okay in the end. If its not okay, then its not the end. "
Is it inspiring watching the "under dog" sports teams rising against the odds and beating the top leagues?
Is it inspiring listening to music that makes you feel?
Is it inspiring seeing your best friend achieve a dream she has wanted for so long?
Is it inspiring hearing the words you feel but just could never say?
Is it inspiring to see someone smile, I mean truly smile even when the going gets tough?
Short answer, yes it is inspirational.
But is it inspiring?
Inspirational is defined as "imparting a divine influence on the mind and soul"
But inspiring makes YOU INSPIRED. So what is inspiring about the list I have just given? The emotions your get from them? People getting what they want? The hope it gives people that anything is possible?
Or is the most inspiring things of all those stories something which you don't even know? Something which you can only guess? I'm talking about the underlying stories of how it happened. How did someone create such a beautiful song that can save your soul? How do people achieve there dreams when the world can throw so much bad at them? How did someone find the strength to smile after a bad day?
By writing this I was hoping I would get inspired or perhaps you would get inspired. But really what this is about applies to so much more than just inspiration! You get out what you put into things. You work hard, you make dreams happen. You can look at a story and think its inspirational. Or you can look a little deeper and find reason. It could be the harder route, you could get lost and get hurt. But you could help someone, you could be part of an inspirational story, you could find your self and your could make someone else dream come true. Now this is all only personal opinion, but you can roll along life scraping the surfaces and live a perfectly normal, satisfactory life. Or you can go through rough and tumble, dig a little deeper and have an utterly imperfect, brilliant life.
Can someone define the difference between right and wrong for me please? Is it right if the feeling is right? If someone tells you its right? If it's what you've been brought up to think?
Is is wrong if people judge you for it? Is it wrong is it feels wrong? Or even if people are telling you its wrong?
What is being wrong? A women aborts her baby, is this wrong? Or would it be wrong to bring up a child that your just not ready to have? Is it right to do something nice for someone? even if in doing something nice your being selfish by getting the gratitude and praise of being nice, is there any unselfish act?
Right and wrong have so many boundaries that overlap, how can you possibly know what your doing is right or wrong?
Someone told me today that they are afraid of the uncertainty, scared of prospects that they do not know and of everything unknown. Through out your life you'll be in situations that can't be defined as right or wrong. You'll never be 100% sure what's going to happen and things might surprise you. What scares you the most? Someone judging you and not knowing your reasons? Hurting other people? Or is it your feelings? The way you would look at yourself are the moment ends? Surprising yourself?
There is no moral to this today, just something to think about....
Every song has to end, but is that a reason not to enjoy the music?
After reading over a few of my blog posts, I realised I haven't told you a lot about myself.... Well in all honesty that's because I wanted to inspire people to live there life instead of telling them all about my mine, but then how can you be inspired by words with no story?
My name isn't important, if you know it, great! If not, then I'm just another one of the millions of peoples names you do not know. People say you are where you come from. I disagree. So I wont tell you where I come from, but I will tell you the situations I've been in and the people I have met because THEY make me who I am today.
One week ago today I tuned 18. In one week so much has happened and I already feel like I've matured just that little bit more, how cliché is that? I wont go into too much detail about this week and what's happened, but just know the inspirational things I write about on here are usually coinciding with my life.
So, a week ago today I was celebrating my 18th with my family and a bottle of Jacques. One week later I had fallen off a motorbike with my knee in quite a lot of pain. I'm okay! it was only bruising, I had to get checked out just in case, but everything was fine. But after all the commotion had stopped and I'd walked back into the centre to fill in paperwork (Urgh! damn health and safety!) and people asked if I wanted them to ring my mum or if I was feeling okay. There was only one thing running through my mind so I said, "I'm still okay to come in tomorrow, yeah?".
So here is my message to you today. Things happen. You have NO idea what will happen in a week from today or even in a few hours. Chances are something will happen that will knock you down (whether it be emotionally or psychically) but you've just got to pick yourself back up. I know what happened isn't a big deal and I'm pretty sure anyone in my place would have done the same thing. And sure, I'm a little worried about it all and the "What if's" But you know what? You only have one chance to do it, there are risks doing anything in the world. So you just gotta go have fun, right?
Can it? Can one hour, sixty seconds, really make such an impact on you, that your life has changed forever?
It took 3 years to build the titanic, and only 2 hours 40 minutes for it to sink.
It took 102hours, 45minutes and 40 seconds for the Apollo to get to the moon, but only 1 minute for Neil Armstrong to step onto the surface.
It took 1,364 years for someone to make a hand gun, but it only takes seconds for a bullet to end a life.
Question: can sixty seconds change your life?
Answer: it can only take 1 moment to change your life. Whether it's a good or bad, self inflicted or unknown circumstances these moments are everywhere. Possibly even sixty seconds away from now. So yeah, it can change your life... Its how you deal with it that changes who you are.
Sunday, 6 February 2011
Is it better to be the one leaving? Or the one being left behind?
Your starting a brand new chapter in your life when you leave. It's new and exciting. But you have to endure the pain of leaving loved ones behind, starting from scratch and worst of all seeing how everything has changed and how people have moved on with out.
If your being left behind you have to watch someone leave and start new adventures. It hurts and makes you want to start the "rest of your life". But you stay with familiarly, its easy, your around everyone you love and you help the place you are in grow and change.
So what would you prefer to do? I guess in the world we live in today, its hard to know if your coming or going. Hard to know what's right and what's wrong. What's real and what's not.
Its hard to know what to do in a world that your born alone into. You just have to trust yourself and do thing because YOU think its right and stop relying on other people so much. Because at the end of the day every decision you make comes from your own actions. But if you don't take chances then what's the point? Your just breathing, not living.
GO AHEAD, Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing. Because in the end you'll only regret the things you didn't do.
The Dream: A sailor sees his beautiful girlfriend. He grabs her from behind and he kisses her in the most spontaneous romantic way.
The Hope: A sailor sees a beautiful nurse and can't resist the urge to grab her from behind and kiss her. They end up falling in love.
The Reality: A sailor sees a beautiful nurse and decides he'll kiss her because he can. She slaps him and they never see each other after that day again.
No-one quite knows what happened that day. Lets just hope the spontaneity of the kiss is still the base of all romance today. Who's to say life isn't one big dream anyway?
6,893,748,892 Is the amount of people in the world right this second. If we're all 1 in a Million then there are 6,894 people just like us...
How often has the phrase "Finding yourself" been used in our world? I wonder how much it was used just today? "I need to find myself" "You can't be found until your lost" As true as these phrases are someone once asked me "What happens if you get so lost that you can't be found?". And right then I found a problem in the philosophy I had been following, what if you did get so lost you couldn't be found? What if being lost isn't okay. What happens when you "find yourself" Then what do you do with life?
After talking to an uncle of mine about travelling and how i wanted to see everything i could possibly see, do everything i could possibly do and find who i was, he looked at me and said "I agree you should. But you'll never find yourself because you have to create yourself" And everything began to make perfect sense again. You can NEVER stop learning about who you are and what you like and what you do. Okay, so your a little lost... who isn't? One bad day, or one bad weekend doesn't change who you are, or where you want to go. It's how you deal with that changes what you make of life.
6,893,748,892 Is the amount of people in the world right this second.
If we're all 1 in a Million then there are 6,894 people just like us...
But your not 1 in a Million are you? Because there is only 1 YOU.
And what would life be with out a little rough and tumble anyway? ;)
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