Believe

Okay, i've just decided my life is about to change.

I'm not as happy as I could be and I could do so much more with my time.

I don't mean to sound blunt but.... one day we're gonna die. What's the point in letting things slip you by. But then what's the point in holding on to things that are just going to waste your time.

I'm gonna get fitter and acutally be good at sport.
I'm gonna finish uni in 3 years with my first!
I'm not gonna have to use my degree because i'm going to travel with my guitar.
I'm going to TRAVEL.
I'm going to be daring.
I'm gonna pay more attention to life rather than being tired or complaining about being tried.
I'm going to follow my gut feelings.
I'm gonna stop being so paranoid.
I'm gonna start living.
I'm going to be more calm.
I'm NOT going to worry about the future and just concentrate on now.
I'm not going to read to much into things.
I'm going to make time for people.
I'm going to stop doing stupid things.
I'm going to concentrate on every aspect of my life EXCEPT love.
I'm gonna learn to play piano.
I'm gonna busk and play more gigs.
I'm gonna smile and enjoy my time and NOT worry if other people are having a better time than me or not.
I'm going to live my life.
I'm going to be the person I want to be.
I'm going to live how i want to live.
And if my heart gets broken, and if i loose everything i have, at least i wont think 'What if' at least I can say I lived. And no matter what happens I can and I will find true happiness in my life.

Step one. To believe I can do everything I just spoke about. To believe in myself for a change.

Because to be fair i;m a bit of a hypercrit. Telling everyone who reads this blog to change and live you life when I'm not even putting 100% into mine because i'm lazy and to put it bluntly i'm scared. Of what could happen. Of the future. Of life.

Not. Any. More