Alive but not living.

It's funny. I've done a lot of crazy stuff in my life and I feel like i've really been alive. And I always think to myself that the time will come for me to settle down when i'm done living my life.... and right now it feels like i'm not even close.

Okay, so i've done a lot of living for a girl of 18... but some people have done so much more. So much more. There is still so much I want to do. We always waiting in out life. Waiting to live. Waiting for the holiday. Waiting to go home. Waiting to leave. Waiting for EVERYTHING in our life. Why can't we just enjoy right now? Why do we have to stay so far back in the past that we cant think about the future? Or so caught up in our future that we forget to live for now. Why can't people just BE. And be happy.

As soon as someone figure's out why, that's when you learn how to live. And when they then use the answer, that's when they finally live. You can do as much things in world as the next person but the person who truly lives isn't running from there past or away from the future. You can do nothing and still live because your truly happy.

So stop worrying about what everyone is doing because that is never going to help. It will only make it worse. And start concentrating on what your doing. And what makes you happy. And how YOU want to live YOUR life.

And remember to enjoy your time. Don't do any of this "they look like there having so much more fun than me. There living. I have a rubbish life" because if you honest with yourself you do do that don't you? Constantly judge yourself with other people looking for evidence that your living. Truth is you can smile in a picture but it doesn't mean your having a good time.

Just try and be happy. At the end of the day, that's what matter most.